Ways to the ocean
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Live a life without regrets
When I sat in the chair not knowing if life has a tomorrow for me, I watched the waves and cried tears of regret. With every tear that was running down my face a dream, a missed opportunity, all the things I hadn’t done flowed down my cheeks. I felt responsible for things I wasn’t responsible for. I was only responsible for my own life. I wasn’t responsible for the happiness of my mother who had depression her whole life. I wasn’t responsible for the things that happened to me in my childhood, but I’m now responsible for my healing and living a life that is joyful and meaningful. I believe…
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Why do you want to follow your dreams?
Why do you want to achieve your dreams? And if you can’t find an answer to this question at once, know that there is a reason, a deeper meaning why this dream comes up in your mind over and over again. If you can dream and visualize it, then this dream is for you. It is meant for you to pursue it. A fact I had to remind myself of multiple times: If you can dream it, you can do it. Sometimes you can’t put the ‘Why’ into proper words. It’s more a feeling, an intuition that is calling you to go for it.When you can’t find your ‘Why’ ask…
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I start to choose anew
My body and mental health are showing me the signs: I’m in burnout mode I feel exhausted, tired, depressed. I can’t sleep in the night because I worry too much about my future. I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning, things and activities that normally bring me joy leave me sad, everything seems to be grey although the spring season paints a colourful picture. I feel disconnected and I fear what the next days might bring: I’m afraid of my job. I’m afraid that I get ill again. I’m afraid of losing my joy and the connection to my heart and soul. I’m afraid of losing…
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What are you passionate about?
What you are passionate about can reveal so much more of who you really are than any education you went through, any job title or your past.We are used to put people into boxes because of their work, income, status or networks they are in. Asking someone what she or he is doing for a living only scratches the surface. Maybe they do this job because they can’t see another way or it’s the least inconvenient option.Maybe they chose this work because it seemed to be a dream job once and now became a trap, a hamster wheel they chose over freedom, a choice out of fear.Maybe they have sold…
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Four seasons to a dream
It was a cold January winter day when I stood on the platform at Cap Gris Nez and tried to look for the other side of the Channel. The blue amazed me, this icy, blue sky was merging with the blue water. There were no white cliffs I could witness on the horizon, only my thoughts if I will ever swim there and end up where I was standing right now. A dream went out over the Channel, my birthday wish. It was spring when we got into lockdown and I had to stop my training, but I never gave up on my dream. I drove in my car to…
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Stepping Stones
Stepping stones Stepping stones are guiding you to walk with a courageous heart. A heart that opens the door to a new world, that can climb over every obstacle in the way. Stepping stones are guiding you over every current, so that you can reach the other shore. A shore that seems so far away. Stepping stones are guiding you into the waves of adventures, waves of the aliveness of the heart. A heart that wants you to live your bold freedom. Stepping stones are guiding you into clarity. A clarity that occurs when the storms and mud have settled. Walk confidently, step by step, watch and listen to the…
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Freedom is waiting on the other shore
In the elements of the ocean 🌊🏊🏻♀️🌊 22. September 2020 I started my swim at 01.55 at Samphire Hoe, with shaky knees and a pitch black night and sea waiting for me.Before I got into the water I felt cold and was scared about what was lying ahead of me.As soon as I entered the water this feeling of being cold went away, the water felt warm and I only had to swim 50m to the shore, getting out of the water, feeling the pebbles under my feet.When I heard the sound of the boat’s horn I jumped into the dark water and took off to swim the Channel. There…
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The umbilical cord of the past
The umbilical cord of the past I had a chat with a friend yesterday and it turned out to become this kind of conversation with full of gold nuggets, with openness and support to find clarity, courage and to reveal the heart’s truth.I know that he wouldn’t want me to use the word ‚truth‘, because what is ‚truth‘ anyway,my ‚truth‘ can be completely different from your ‚truth‘. Is it more a kind of heart’s wisdom, the authentic self ( authenticity, also an inflationary used word) or the wisdom and knowledge of the soul?How can you describe when you recognize that the heart ‚knows‘, that you are guided by this wisdom?…
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Afterglow
Afterglow I’m sitting here, staring out of the window andI’m dreaming of the afterglow in the evening. I’m listening to the sound of my racing thoughts like cars in the street and I’m dreaming of leaving, for the afterglow in the evening. I’m watching the time goes by, feeling stuck in life without meaning and I’m dreaming of the ocean’s freedom, the afterglow in the evening. Where is the wide horizon that glows in the evening, with the waves rolling onto the shore that let me dream of leaving, for the afterglow in the evening? Where is the sound of the ocean, where the seagulls that fly into this afterglow…
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The young girl and the sea
When did the ocean first connect with me? I was a child that felt very lonely and lost, disconnected and not belonging, not to a family ora group of friends, actually it felt as if I wasn’t wanted, like a burden.I grew up with my mom who got divorced from my dad when I was 3 years old. My mom suffered from severe depression and there were always worries about howto get enough money for our daily life. I tended to dream myself out of my situation. I dreamed of adventures, of being brave, of exploring new places.I loved books so much and especially those about bold adventurers, about pirates,…