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The Thinker
The Thinker The writing prompt: At the museum Choose three display pieces, one as the title and the other two within your story. Rodin museum, Paris The Thinker by Auguste Rodin https://www.musee-rodin.fr/en/musee/collections/oeuvres/thinker Hylas and the nymphs by Alexandre Falguière https://www.musee-rodin.fr/en/musee/collections/oeuvres/hylas-and-nymphs Meditation or the inner voice by Auguste Rodin https://www.musee-rodin.fr/en/musee/collections/oeuvres/meditation-or-inner-voice The Thinker Paul was sitting at his desk, frowning, chin resting on his hand. He looked out of the window but he didn’t really see anything, only skyscrapers. His thoughts rushed through his head, just like the never-ending traffic in the city. He had had a meeting with his boss and it ended with an argument: the sales has to go…
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Four seasons to a dream
It was a cold January winter day when I stood on the platform at Cap Gris Nez and tried to look for the other side of the Channel. The blue amazed me, this icy, blue sky was merging with the blue water. There were no white cliffs I could witness on the horizon, only my thoughts if I will ever swim there and end up where I was standing right now. A dream went out over the Channel, my birthday wish. It was spring when we got into lockdown and I had to stop my training, but I never gave up on my dream. I drove in my car to…
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Stepping Stones
Stepping stones Stepping stones are guiding you to walk with a courageous heart. A heart that opens the door to a new world, that can climb over every obstacle in the way. Stepping stones are guiding you over every current, so that you can reach the other shore. A shore that seems so far away. Stepping stones are guiding you into the waves of adventures, waves of the aliveness of the heart. A heart that wants you to live your bold freedom. Stepping stones are guiding you into clarity. A clarity that occurs when the storms and mud have settled. Walk confidently, step by step, watch and listen to the…
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Wintering
I watched the branches of the apple tree moving with the gentle breeze and I saw that the buds are already there, ready for wintering and preparing for spring at the same time. Am I ready for wintering? Am I ready to let things transform into a peaceful state, waiting for the sun of spring to wake them up? Am I ready for wintering, for waiting patiently to give things time to grow without doing something for it? Am I ready to surrender to the silence and going inwards to restore my energy, to fill my heart with the nurturing of winter to be able to blossom again? Am I…
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Freedom is waiting on the other shore
In the elements of the ocean 🌊🏊🏻♀️🌊 22. September 2020 I started my swim at 01.55 at Samphire Hoe, with shaky knees and a pitch black night and sea waiting for me.Before I got into the water I felt cold and was scared about what was lying ahead of me.As soon as I entered the water this feeling of being cold went away, the water felt warm and I only had to swim 50m to the shore, getting out of the water, feeling the pebbles under my feet.When I heard the sound of the boat’s horn I jumped into the dark water and took off to swim the Channel. There…
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The umbilical cord of the past
The umbilical cord of the past I had a chat with a friend yesterday and it turned out to become this kind of conversation with full of gold nuggets, with openness and support to find clarity, courage and to reveal the heart’s truth.I know that he wouldn’t want me to use the word ‚truth‘, because what is ‚truth‘ anyway,my ‚truth‘ can be completely different from your ‚truth‘. Is it more a kind of heart’s wisdom, the authentic self ( authenticity, also an inflationary used word) or the wisdom and knowledge of the soul?How can you describe when you recognize that the heart ‚knows‘, that you are guided by this wisdom?…
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Dolphin Days
Today starts my favorite month of the year: September. September is my ocean month because I normally spend time by the ocean.I love that there are still warm and sunny days but the heat of summer is gone and the fresh air and autumn colors are on the horizon.September has a stillness and inner peace and it reminds me of healing and freedom. 5 years ago I started my medication free life after being under treatment for 6 years.Although the chances were so small I’m still in complete remission. That was the September of healing. In that year I also surfed my first green wave, memories that still fill my…
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An invitation to reconnect
I was there before, it is just a thought that you need to go on holiday. This thought of a time off that will make things better, that this will be the solution to the exhaustion, to the tension, numbness and sadness you feel. Yes, it’s true, slowing down and getting away from your routines from time to time are necessary to recharge your energy, to get more joy and flow into your life.But this debilitating weariness and foggy sadness are signs. My body wants me to know that I’m navigating into the wrong direction. My heart wants me to know that I’m in a self-induced prison, far away from…
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You belong
You belong Even if you feel lost, you belong.The ocean is waiting to embrace you with its waves.Even if you feel alone, you belong.The ocean takes you in its comfort.Even if you don’t know where to go, you belong.The ocean will make you feel coming home.Even if you feel weak and discouraged, you belong.The ocean will help you to become stronger.Even if you feel scared and full of doubts, you belong.The ocean will carry you to new horizons.Even if you feel not enough, you belong.The ocean will connect you to your heart.Even if you feel not loved, you belong.The ocean will reflect all the love within your beautiful soul. Even…
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Making the unbearable bearable
One of my coping mechanism to deal with trauma is the need to make sense of situations, of experiences that have no sensible reason why they happened. What is the mental response to a traumatic event? For me it was and I still catch myself of doing it sometimes: Overthinking. I desperately tried to find a sense and meaning in these events.When you do this from early childhood on, you might program your brain to think illogical thoughts, you create limiting believes for yourself.I’ll give you an example: When a child experienced disconnection and that emotional needs aren’t met, the child can come to the conclusion that she or he…
